Is it possible that my new crush is an alcoholic? Drinking at noon, sloshed by three--it's a serious possibility. So we've been flirting and having a great time, and today he told me about his cute new two bedroom (that I now realize is ohsoclose to where my previous alcoholic is living), and I just can't help thinking that today it was irrefutable: he's crushing on me too. But he was also telling me that twelve years ago he had a drug problem, and twelve years ago he was 27. This startling new fact may be changing my feelings about him. He's almost twice my age! Why is it that I was completely comfortable with 36, and just three years older makes me uncomfortable? Well, surely neither of us is interested in anything serious or committed. But I'm ohso wary of getting involved with another alcoholic. And what must he assume of me? Relative to my average personal presentation, I'm remarkably put together at the job. In the beginning I was shaving my legs and wearing earrings--sometimes even lipstick! I can only imagine his reaction, if in the midst of heavy petting he came across legs whose hair rivaled his! So I'm nervous. I think, if I can look past his NRA card, surely he'll be able to look past my holey sweaters and ducted taped shoes... But how realistic am I being? This man is from LA, and that in itself is intimidating. The women he must have dated before! Suddenly, now that this seems like an actual possibility, I am opening my eyes and seeing the ocean for the sharks, instead of the shimmering turquoise water. Either way, I am getting far ahead of myself.
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